Saturday 22 May 2021

Searching for you

We're sitting on the couch again

Going over what used to be

I call it 'a mistake in disguise.'

You, a 'bittersweet symphony.'


It started in the library hall.

You were lost, quite literally, too.

While you search for self-help books, 

My eyes just searched for you.


We talked about the Roman Empire, 

And whether tomatoes are really fruits?

You made that little piggy laugh

When I disclaimed my favourite show is Suits


I remember it was raining cats and dogs

When you got down on your knee

"This isn't transitional; it's not a phase

Oh, Darling, this is meant to be."


I'm standing in the bridal store.

"You look lovely! Oh, what a delight."

My stomach feels the way when we got hungover together

It's all falling into place, but something's not right.


I stare outside the window, waiting for you

There's no moonlight tonight; it's only clouded.

You go over the seating plan for D-Day

Wait, did you always chew this loud?


Your sandalwood musk suddenty hurts my nose

The phone buzzing is giving me a headache

"Darling, lilies or roses at the altar?"

But all I'm thinking is that this is a mistake.


6 months later, I hear my doorbell ring

You stand there gorgeous as ever, with a box of my stuff

My day started with your kisses, ended with our long walks

When did this become enough?


As I close the door behind me

I see your finger with the wedding ring

I didn't know the wound was still open, 

And in my heart, I feel a sting.


You pick the cup set aside on the table

Milk, no sugar, just as you used to

That's how I won your heart the first time

With a strong cup of fresh brew


We take our seats on the couch 

Talking about what is and what used to be 

For you loved who I was when I was around you 

But you never saw the true me.